I respect and admire your courage in recognizing that you have been, or may have been, sexually abused. The fact you are reading this shows that you recognise you may be experiencing problems as a result of this abuse. Recognising that sexual abuse happened, and that it has harmed you are important steps in the process of healing.
Unfortunately, it is not certain that online counselling is an appropriate approach for people dealing with sexual abuse. So I am sorry that I cannot help you via email counselling and I encourage you to find a face-to-face counsellor.